Weekends don't work.... for him

So, this past week was a very tough week. 10x tougher then going through the divorce. First off it was Mother's day on Sunday and I had Ben calling during the week and that made me just miss him even more.

I told Michael that I would like to see Ben every other weekend and for him to stay with him during the week, so Ben can have a more stable living situation to help with his school behavior. Well he informed me that every other weekends are for "dead beat dads and for Bitches that treat the fathers like shit"

That's when I told him that I guess we will never come up with a solution and nothing else can be done.

This whole thing makes me soooo sad because I have always been there for Ben because I always wanted to do what was best for Ben, no matter how hard it was to deal with Michael. And even me going to just weekends in my eyes is still what is best for Ben. More stable for him but at the same time he doesn't think I just abandoned him.

But this way he was just taken away from me without me even being able to say good bye and have him being told God knows what.

Everyones says I have made impression and that he will always remember me but that doesn't help the pain or stop the tears.